Tuesday, August 10, 2010
I miss Slinky's, and "book"stairs. I miss being excited for something trivial. I miss not having "boundaries" of where my spirit can soar. I miss the innocence of a stolen kiss. I miss thinking the world is my oyster. I miss the feeling of a heart that does not have gaping holes. I miss cotton candy at the county fair while missing curfew. I miss soggy cheese sandwiches on the beach. I miss having a crush on my history teacher. I miss experiencing FOUR seasons. I miss spontaneity. I miss looking at Bon Jovi and knowing he was my future husband. I miss getting paid for a job well done. I miss riding a bike with a dirty face and a mission to find creatures with my brother. I miss the feeling of new clothes on the first day of school. I miss sitting on my Grandpa's lap hearing about his blueberry bushes. I miss being the one jumping in the middle of the bubbles to pop them. I miss my dad's constant whistling. I miss wearing striped toe socks and converse shoes. I miss singing in front of smiling elderly people. I miss NOT being the one everyone counts on to make decisions. I miss smiling upside down on my bed while squealing about boys with a neighbor girl. I miss pancake mornings (that I'm not cooking). I miss bonfires and the BS that happens around them. I miss not being afraid to camp because the bears will eat me like corn. I miss the first day on a new job. I miss holding hands and "monkey tailin' " fingers. I miss REALLY believing in Santa. I miss feeling safe. I miss feeling invincible. I miss smelling my mom's paint in the house. I miss not knowing what things really cost. I miss brushing someones skin with mine to "awaken" them. I miss pop tarts on Thanksgiving morning while watching the parade. I miss being dressed up in business attire gaining respect. I miss not being sick. I miss not being stable. I miss pop-rocks and coke. I miss the smell of my dad's Snicker doodles on Halloween night while he scared the older kids with his sound system. I miss my successful teenage babysitting business. I miss thinking things will always bounce back. I miss kicking ass on the pool table for money. I miss jumping in leaves. I miss being excited about my birthday. I miss the smell of mountain air. I miss my best friends awful biscuit pizza with mushrooms. I miss smelling my baby's head, they're not babies anymore :( . I miss running away from the waves. I miss planning vacations (and actually taking them). I miss dancing with a group of strangers. I miss late night rendezvous. I miss snuggling for the first time. I miss playing board games. I miss hammocks and fireflies.
I woke up this morning thinking about a slinky, that brought me to play dough and the taste of salt on my fingers, "copying" the Sunday cartoons with silly putty and cutting Barbie doll hair with dull scissors.
There are so many simple things that I miss. Things that come back in little snippets of a cherished memory. I need these little happy thoughts to swirl around me, we all do.
What are some things you miss?